All I want is to know Im right....
Mood:  a-ok
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Suspended in a moment of truth.... For a brief moment, I understood....

Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Such Great Heights - The Postal Service
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Saturday morning couldn't have come sooner. The week was starting to take its toll. Work is great, but I just wanted to get this week over with. Despite it only being a 4 day week it just felt like it dragged on.
Im glad its Saturday though.
Friday was good, I met up with Lisa for a drink after work... then I went round to Fish for the Poker game I mentioned earlier in the week. We had a good night.... I started off by doing my usual and being totally unpridicable but the lads werent to happy about this so i got a little more serious. I ended up winning too... So it was even better than I had thought it was going to be.
Today, Its started late, as I got in late last night so a lie in was needed... granted, that only lasted till around 10... So I was up and having breakfast but half past. I'm bored with Saturday morning tv... its not like it used to be.. or at least I dont, understandably, enjoy it like i used to.
Today, I plan to make do on my promice to myself and start on the new site. I say new but I mean Gspaced.co.uk... asn its still just a shell with a couple of pages on there. I have got certain plan to complete the independant blog... but I think that will come a little later.
So, lets see how the day goes.... Weather seems good.

My view
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Foo Fighters - Best of You
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The Foo Fighters are absolutly class. I love the song "Best of You".

I love my office and the views it affords me... My desk has a huge window in font of it that looks out onto the fields behind Waltham Forest town hall. Its great, when I need to I just chill and look at out over the trees and stuff.
But with the aproaching spring and summer... well, the sun mostly... I have to lower the blinds so that the sun doesnt just shine and blind me as I'm trying to work. Which sucks cause I don't get the oppertunity to look out the window.

I've been thinking about going to a few more concerts this summer, maybe even a festival. I want to see the Foo's and some others. I've already got tickets to see Weezer in June. Which I'm well looking forward to. I havent seen Weezer since, well I dont remember.. but it was in Leeds at the Carling festival. I wonder how Lee is...Hmmmm I hear that he, Toby and a few others from uni have moved to Manchester together.

Its hard to write these postings, sometimes I have loads of things to say and they pop into my mind as I'm writing and then when I finish the paragragh, I have already forgotten what I was gonna say.

I'm planning to start a new blog soon. But this will be slightly different as I'll be hosting it directly on Gspaced.co.uk.... Currently this is being hosted by Triod and it has its limitations. So when I've learnt more adout RSS and CSS. And then paid out for the program that will give me loads of things to play with... you will see the proper blog... pictures and everything. I'm sure you will be pleased... I've got a few good ideas for it.

So, obviously... today is Friday. Idon't know what I'm doing tonight... there are options and I think it could come down to a few options, like... Poker, movie, pub, various clubs and a trip up London... Or there is the option of popping round my Dads. See the cat??

At the moment I'm reading Dan Browns Angels and Demons. Its quite good and its so far following the same formula that was adopted in his book, The Da Vinci Code. That was good too.

Might post on the weekend if I have the chance...

See Ya.

Can anybody fly this thing?
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: High Speed - Coldplay
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Living life inside a bubble.

I think there are dangerous things in the world that we dont realise. Sometimes the most comfortable and seemingly reliable thing in the world can turn... It can bite and it can chew you up and spit you out.
If we sat around all day and relied ont hings to always be there, they might one day want something back... they might, actually want to be taken serious themselves. You might actually have to care.
I hate the idea of being used.
I hate the idea of being taken for granted.

This is why sometimes its good to make sure they know your not just going to stay there and take it all the time.
Im not a door mat.

Im not just for you.

I might go away and then you will know that you have to be there for me to.

Either that or you will have to go. Leave. Disapear.

They will notice.

When your gone.

One hundred and ninety eight
Mood:  accident prone
Now Playing: Dekota - Stereophonics
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I was so bored at home this morning, I had to leave the house early to get to work.
I'm sitting at my desk looking out the window at the rain and it feels right. The mood is set. Grey skys, overcast clouds and reflections of water on the celing. There are stars flying around in my mind.
Here is copy of an email I recieved.
Sometimes my brain ties together things that are better left alone. Here are three things I've thought about recently:

- Microchip designers often embed microscopic messages on the surface of the chip as a way of signing their work.

- DNA has a lot of "junk" parts that don't seem to have any function.

- A lot of people think evolution is obviously "designed" by someone.
I wonder if any cryptographers have looked at that junk DNA to see if it's a message from the designer. I'm guessing that it's a code that says something like, "I am Kaloopah, from the star system Nebulon IV. I have sent this evolution program into space as my eighth grade science project."

I imagine that a few thousand years from now, when scientists have learned to manipulate DNA, we'll be launching evolution programs into the cosmos, programmed to seek any planet that has the right environment. The rocket will land and spill its primordial goo, programmed with evolutionary preferences such as gender, eyeballs, limbs, mobility, and the urge to sit in cubicles while complaining about coworkers.

Evolution on that new planet would be programmed to develop over a few billion years to resemble us, obviously, because we're spectacularly vain, so we'd write the DNA program to turn out that way. There'd be no point in going to all that trouble just to create the Giant Chipmunk Planet.

This doesn't answer the question of who created the original aliens. But I suspect that the only way time can be infinite is if the past connects to the future like some huge Mobius strip-wormhole kind of deal. All you need to make this hypothetical system work is people like us who evolve and create new planets, who in turn evolve and create more new planets, until time loops back to our past and we get created again. In other words, we'd HAVE to evolve to the point where we could create a new planet or else we wouldn't exist in the present. Freaky, huh?

One hundred and ninety seven
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Embrace
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Monday morning, and the sun I shining on my desk.
I’m considerably bored today, Work is good… but I’m having the Monday blues. As is, the rest of civility. What have we done on the weekend? I was meant to go out on Friday night… I got ready, Fish came round and we had Jack… We didn’t make it out the door though. We turned the music up and had a laugh. Si was meant to be coming, but the lazy bastard couldn’t be arsed. Never mind….
Saturday morning I woke up to the familiar sound of the shower at 6 am… nice. Not pleased by this, I hid under the pillow and forced slumber. Then at around 11, I got up and had a chat with Lisa. She was going to Lakeside so I decided to join her. Look for Kim’s birthday present. I got the 2 hours later and wondered around a couple of shops. Lisa wanted to get a dress for the night… and luckily, due to my late arrival, she had time enough to find out the type of dress she didn’t want to get.
Being indifferent about what to get Kim, I decided on a card and another shopping trip later in the week.
I managed to get home a few hours later and have some dinner. Faffing about I got ready and left to meet Fish. We went out to the George for some drinks and met up with some girls from our Trinity. To my surprise, we met Hanna, who, it turns out was very good friends with my sister, Gerarda. So we hung out with them for a while and then went with them to O’neills in Leytonstone. Si was also meant to be joining us, but again the unsocial tit didn’t make it…. Not even a call to say he wouldn’t. Git. Lol. So there we were in O’niells having a few. As usual, it was dark and crap. But we weren’t gonna let that change our moods. So we just got on with things and ended up talking to a couple of girls, again from Trinity. The exception this time was that they were actually our age. While Fish was chatting to Kerri about things.. I was talking to Denise. I remember Denise from school because her and Claire didn’t exactly get on and well, you notice these things. I always assumed that because of my connection with Claire that these things just continued. But after a good talk with her… It seems that I greatly under valued her and Kerri. A couple of really nice girls and not what I expected. So, moving on, we got dragged out of the pub by the girls we had met earlier in the night and on to McD’s for nothing it seemed. Neither of us wanted food… so we said our good byes and left…. Having a good laugh on the way back to Fish’s place.
Sunday I was feeling a bit rough… I didn’t drink that much and for some reason I couldn’t really think properly. But It soon cleared up in Romford when I met Kim for what was to be lunch but ended up just hanging out. We went back to mine and Kim was nice enough to make dinner.
So the weekend was cool. Nice to get out and play a bit.

Rather fancy
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Roseability - Idlewild
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One rather clever development from BT that you may not be aware of .. Yes, I said BT, the landline provider that provide a lot of the UK's standard phones. How do they warrant a story on Gspaced? Well, you can now send a text message to any "normal" landline phone.

"Oi", I hear you cry, "your losing the plot. Not everyone has one of those flashy new BT phones where you can send / receive text messages"

... You don't need to. Sure, it helps - the new phones let you send messages from a landline number (and they're quite cheap too)... they even have polyphonic ringtones and colour screens as BT struggle to compete with their mobile competitors - however anyone with any phone can now receive a text.

How is it done? Well, it's real easy. Go on, pick up your Smartphone now and send a message to your own home phone number. Type a proper message in, like "Hello, I will be home in 5 minutes, get the dinner sorted love" ;) Within seconds your home phone rings and the familiar "1571" BT Answer lady will READ OUT your text message along with the number it came from. If no-one answers then BT will keep it as a standard voice-message and will inform you with the usual two-tone dial-tone.

Note - Bluesmudge has emailed me to say NTL customers can get this too!

Gspaced.co.uk
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Like Eating Grass - Bloc Party
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Anybody notice whats happening over at the Gspaced.co.uk site these days... Last week there was a change to the layout and then again the layout changed...It seems to have changed completely and become more dynamic. Professional is not the word i want to use here, but its definatly a step in the right direction.
So check it out boys and girls...
Full URL is: Gspaced.co.uk

The age of indifference.
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Red Hot Chili Peppers . ... .
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Its easter.... Sitting around and NOT eating chocolate... Ive been taking it easy so far. Friday I went shopping with Leanne. Wondered around London chatting and chilling. Then afterwords went out to Opium with Kim and Karen..... It was a total let down and I couldn't be bothered to really be there... I left early. I feel like im getting old these days. Trying to keep up with the youthful girls. But I try.
What has the world been getting up to? Keeping busy i'm sure....
I'm downloading more and more songs... trying to build up my collection....
Work is going well. I'm enjoying it and trying to keep busy. Which I am.
I haven't really seen the lads in a while. I went out with Marco and Sylvanna during the week. But thats about it.

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Mood:  energetic
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If I had some influence girl with the powers that be, I'd have them fire an arrow at you like they fired it right at me....